Sweet like Chocolate

What comes to mind when you think of the word chocolate? Your favourite chocolate? The taste? The colour? Well, the first thing that comes to my mind is Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Every kid has a dream to be surrounded by all the chocolate in the world, unless of course, you don’t like chocolate, then… 

The book invented this fantasy world, which was brought to life through the movie. I have watched this movie a million times and, I could watch it again and again and still be fascinated by how cool it would be to drink from a river of chocolate.

I can only tell you how much I used to love drinking coke, eating sweets and chocolate. Oh, and I absolutely loved my masala chai with sugar. That surge of sugar would keep me going. Since I was 28, I have had to control my intake of everything. Any guesses why? 

I have type 2 diabetes. Another symptom of Friedreich’s ataxia. Diabetes was the final symptom left, so I knew that sooner or later, it was going to strike. When it did, I became a textbook example of a someone with Friedreich’s ataxia. Nice! No biggie. I couldn’t see my world, I couldn’t hear my world or move in my world, what’s one more, right? I can no longer taste my world the way I used to either. I know I sound like such a drama queen, but I’m just saying it as it is. What can I say, I am a drama queen after all. I have to keep myself entertained somehow. 

On top of dealing with my other symptoms, being diagnosed with diabetes was one of the hardest. Eating whatever I wanted was like an escape from my emotions. Not having that freedom anymore was quite devastating. However, I am actually glad that this was the last symptom to show up and it was quite later on in my life. 

Diabetes control is harder than you think. It’s not that you can just eat what you want and jab yourself with insulin to control the sugar levels. Like mentioned before, I love my sugar! Did you know, that sugary foods weren’t the only way you take in sugar? Any carbohydrate such as bread, pasta, potatoes and rice, all are high in sugar. So, this too has to be controlled. Doctors told me I had to eat EVERYTHING in moderation. I have learned to adapt to my condition a lot. If I crave chocolate, I’d have dairy milk dark chocolate, and even that, I’d only have one piece. Trust me, that takes a lot of self-control. Easter, Christmas, Diwali and other celebration, several boxes filled with chocolate and sweets come in. The temptation keeps building up. I admit I have cheat days on these occasions. But, every other day, I stay in control.

I don’t mean to go off on a tantrum, just sharing my experience and my journey. Although, I’m still coping fine and finding ways to smile every day. At the end of the day, ‘I may have diabetes, but diabetes does not have me’ (Unknown). I would like to think so anyway. 

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